Santeria. -.-

Recently,I've come to realize that I'm an extremely jealous person.It's overwhelming.It's weird though because someone who I honestly don't like at all will get a girlfriend or like someone and I'm really jealous.It's so awkward,because I won't even talk to the kid ever,or find him attractive,,but I still get jealous.But if I meet them as taken,I really don't ever care if they're single or taken.It's really weird and I don't really like it.I try to control my jealousy over things,but it's always there.I also notice when I like someone,I feel so insecure when they talk to other girls.Maybe this IS just a big insecurity.Maybe it's because I lack self confidence too much.But how do I change this?I always feel fight,smelly,bad hair, and horrible face.But I think it's a common thing for some teenage girls to not like themselves.Eventually I'll get to that point in my life where I just don't care at all anymore.But for the moment,I care about everything!I need to stop eating so much,,but I get bored and having nothing to do so i eat!ughhh,,,,